Y’all…I’ve been reading a little on the web about fakestagramming…who knew there was a word? I knew what it was right away. In the world of social media, I think we’re all keenly aware that some people want to portray themselves a certain way. No filter is actually a lot of smoke and mirrors. The struggle is real for all of us. I’m glad to be part of a blogging community that values authenticity. We all cheer each others’ successes and encourage each other in our struggles. And as far away as many of you are from Texas, I’m grateful for the support and encouragement as I put yesterday behind me and move forward toward a better tomorrow.
And I think you know by now, I’m pretty real on my social media. I mean, it doesn’t get more real than this pic above. No filter. This week was a mix of good and bad. I think my expression sums it up.
First, the good stuff!
Another week of training under my belt with this 8 week training cycle. Less than 2 weeks to go to the California International Marathon!! I think I’m still in shock that Thanksgiving is this week. Hello?? Where did the rest of November go?? This will be my first holiday without my kids, so…I’m preparing for that mentally.
So, to prepare for the race, I’ve been working on my marathon playlist. After not running with music for the first three marathons, I’ve learned that if I’m running by myself, music definitely helps in miles 20-26, so I’ve been running a lot with my Aftershokz Trekz Air headphones. I love them. They’re super lightweight, but even better, I don’t have to mess with uncomfortable earbuds. I hate wearing earbuds. I have never found earbuds that fit my ears and don’t pop out. And if they don’t pop out it’s because they’re wedged so far into my ear that they’re not only uncomfortable, but I’m sure I’m causing hearing loss. Last week, I s
aw Thor Ragnorok with my kids. Have you seen it? I LOVED it, as I do most superhero movies (and Chris Hemsworth is super hot). There are two scenes in particular that feature Led Zeppelin’s “Immigrant Song.” I hadn’t heard the song in years and knew it had to be ton my playlist. Just makes me feel like I can conquer the world or at least 26.2 miles of it. 🙂 I’ve been playing that song all.week.long. Eventually, the kids told me, “Can we please listen to something else?”
My workouts at the beginning of this week were good. Despite running 22 miles last Saturday, I felt pretty good. I had a heavenly massage to help get rid of a hip tweak that was bothering me.
Monday: Easy 6 miles
Tuesday: 3x1200s with warm up (total 6 miles)
And…the not so good stuff:
I’m not sure what happened between Tuesday and Thursday, but I was SO tired.
Thursday: 6 mile progression was supposed to be tempo, but nope.
Friday: Easy 6 was fine, but I could feel my legs were tired.
Saturday: 16 miles was really, really hard mentally. I was supposed to do the majority in MP, but 16 mph winds, 72 degrees and 99% humidity made for one leg speed that was nowhere near MP.
I’ve been in marathon training since June, so it’s no surprise that my body is tired. There’s nothing to be fake about–it’s hard! But I really tried to get more sleep and eat more, but nothing has changed in terms of energy. I’m trying to pamper myself a little more because I’ve underestimated the toll that other life stuff is taking on me, I think.
One thing that I have really struggled with lately is negative self-talk. If I’m slow on a day, I’m like, I’m never gonna get the goal pace… If I don’t eat well, I’m like wow, I have no self-discipline. Then, I see people post on IG and FB about crossfire, weightlifting, transformations and and mind-blowing number of races with blistering paces and crazy mileage and washboard abs…Need I say more? I’m not saying all posters are fakers, but I will say that it’s hard not to compare myself. All at once, it’s inspiring and discouraging because comparison is the thief of joy, isn’t it? When these negative thoughts creep in, I try to keep focusing on my pathway by looking at some Bible verses I’ve written on index cards that point me back to truth. I think about how my past is leading to a better future, because I know it is, and all THIS, this will be for my benefit.
But, I also know that negative self-talk starts as kids, and my kids will sometimes say things about themselves that make me wonder where it comes from… AND a few of my closest friends struggling with it too. I want my kids (and my friends too) to know that no matter how they feel about themselves, they are awesome in God’s eyes. So, I made this graphic to put in my kids’ rooms and on my mirror:
And, to help with all that self-negativity, I’ll continue to run, pray and enjoy friends, and all the wonderful things in my life. Because there really is so much blessing in my life. Race day is what it will be, goals or no goals. It will be my 5th marathon in less than 2 years–and that is something because once upon a time, I never, ever wanted to run a half marathon and never, ever thought I COULD.