Wednesday’s Word, confident, had me singing the song, “Confident” by Demi Lovato, which is currently on my running playlist. Great song to get me moving! I love hearing my daughter belt it out in the backseat.
With certain aspects of running, I’m not as confident as I could be. With marathon training, I was constantly second guessing my training and workouts. Will I bonk? When will I hit the wall? How many times will I hit the wall? Will I break? Of course, I didn’t break, but that long training season certainly undermined my confidence like no other. But, sometimes when I have a race, I can often second guess whether I can PR or hit the goal I’ve set, even when my training has gone well. When I’m not feeling particularly confident, I tell myself that I’ll run my race, have fun, and do the best I can.
Lately, a little of my confidence has been shaken because, since the beginning of the year, running and training has been so different compared to last year. I’m in a different place just because I’m trying to recover after marathons and stay on top of little aches and pains that have been cropping up here and there. I keep comparing myself to this time last year, which was so different because I was doing the 2015 mileage challenge, but I really need to stop comparing! I’m still doing core workouts every day, and I’m confident that with continued running and diligence, things will eventually be ache-free again.
But, I’m confident in my:
- Consistency with running (something I was not consistent with before).
- Strength as a runner
- Ability to tackle new goals—now that I’ve tackled some goals that I thought were impossible, I know that with planning and hard work, I can tackle more.
So I know that this brief period of having less confidence will pass. Just keep running!
This week, I’m making a big step to leave the running club I joined when I first moved to Texas. I’ve learned a lot from the coaches about running, training, nutrition, and so much more, but I’ve learned even more on my own and from the other runners in the club. There’s an incredible sense of fellowship among people you run with. We cheer for each other, laugh at/with each other, and know how to have fun outside of running. There’s a healthy sense of competition balanced with accountability and encouragement. I’ve made some incredible friends through this club, but it’s time to move on and try something new with my training. Lucky for me, my running bestie and pace partner is also leaving, and we’re going to be running together. Because she’s smoking fast, I have someone to chase so maybe (MAYBE!) some day I can hit those faster paces. More than anything, we can still commiserate about anything (like Downton Abbey!) and everything (the parts that chafed on our last run!) and keep each other accountable on our runs. We’re devising a new training plan right now, but it would be great for us to have a new coach to follow a plan. Do you have a coach? if you have any recommendations, please send them!
So, despite going back to not having a coach, a concrete training plan, and a large group of runners to run with, I’m confident that this new chapter will be a great undertaking.
Linking up with Deb for Wednesday Word.